BITH letter.

For my BITH class I had to write a letter to a friend explaining why I went to Wheaton even though it has strict rules, etc.

So I start the letter saying that it was interesting to see where we all ended up. (Pretty much).

And then this weird picture entered into my head.

It was of four pretty girls on graduation day. They had been friends forever, see, and they finally made it. This is the top. This is the happily ever after. Their dark blue gowns made their blue eyes sparkle, and there were lots of bright flashes as thrown caps danced above their heads.

Yeah, this is it.

How many movies have I seen with this image? Too many. So what did I expect when it came to my day? Well, pretty much that.

It's weird to know that it's already past.

I thought those kids were so cool. So cool as they went to their senior all-night party. As a freshman/sophmore, that's just so BA. You're graduated and you can do whatever you want now. But hey, might as well go to this silly school function. You're going to hang out with your friends, not because it's cool. And you don't even have to.

Woah. So sweet. .. hah.

But those few years have flown by and I can barely even remember being that. Where high school still seems super important and a senior seemed like a whole new grown up adult.

I don't even know which way is up now.


I expected to be challenged in College. Mainly in the academic sense.

Hahahaaaaa. I was so. Blind-sided.

Every day has been a whirl-wind. These are new rooms, new faces, new jobs, new papers.
Everything is something that I've never experienced before and I just have to figure it out.

Spiritually?? my life's a mess.

There's wonderful and awful all the time. I'm getting to know more of life and death whether I like it or not. Bad stuff comes like a slap in the face, unexpected. Out of no where. But blessings come too, like rain that comes on a sunny day.. when you had no idea it was coming but you're really excited that it did. Because it's beautiful, after all.

I don't know. I'm not sure if I'm explaining this well, but I just wanted to say that this is not what they teach you.

Movies, kids that don't know anything, your dreams and expectations.

None of these things know what life is really like, or what is actually going to happen to you. You live it and hold on tight,
you just wake up and read Bible verses because where the heck does wisdom come from, anyway?


Because even if people change their minds the Bible always says the same things.

And God is still completely solid, doing weirdly cool things whether you're ready or not. Even when you're still on that spinny ride, frantically looking for someone to grab that metal bar and pull you to a stop as you hear gravel slide under their feet.

He's brings blessings on us when we look and can't find anyone.


Ah he's so awesome.

And please, instead of exerting the same about of extreme effort to deny him, maybe think about exerting effort to find him.

Because if you don't know,

you might as well pursue the story with a happy ending.


Just. Saying.